Period of transition

Well college has started off all good! I'm really enjoying it at the moment. Life is FINALLY starting to lift off a bit, which I welcome since out of a proper & consistant social enviroment since April 2008 when I got wrongly expelled (see April 2008 archives). I love meeting new people, and have met some fine girls so far to say the least! hehe...

It's official! I'm "Weird"...

Yes, i've heard it all before. I've been told i'm weird on three/four occasions within the last 2 weeks, and to be honest...i'm both quite offended and shocked! They all say it's "because of how I speak, both vocabulary and accent". So these days, being well spoken is weird is it?! It's utter nonsense, because I look at it this way: They are the ones who are thick as pig shit, not me! If I have the ability to speak well (even though I have a stokie accent!!!!) and they don't, doesnt that make them the strange ones? Simply cause they cannot speak "PROPER ENGLISH?". I'm not saying I can speak "by the book English", because I can't! I just have a diffrent tone and perspective to my voice, thats all.
Fuckin hell...it just gets up my nose...just because i'm a little diffrent than them, I get singled out as being a weirdo! I'm a tolerent person towards others, so I don't pick up on things which others (especially my age group) find to be eccentric.
Yes i'll admit i'm a little strange but i'm mostly at peace with myself because I'm a decent person who doesnt go round commiting crimes, I always make a great effort to be polite to people, I respect others...in 2009, yes this would be weird I guess!

2009 - so far

2 words to sum it up: fuckin shite! Everything has been a total fuck up! Excuse my french but thats just how I feel....

I'm not joking, nothing is going well at the present time, I just hope to god that from September onwards picks up both socially, and mentally. I also hope that going College unlocks my inner ability to become whatever I damn well please! I hope that this is the benchmark of my future, and the beginning of my tall ladder of hopeful sucesses.

Well yes this year has been shit, but there have been a few positive things: I started my own business which failed HAHA typical me...and 2, I had a cheap break away to Denmark. Not bad positive things, but thats the only positives this year. OH 1 more, i've become a much stronger person inside because this rough year has made me tougher - despite this, I have more reason to suspect I have Aspurgers Syndrome :/

Social Decline

These last few months have been very difficult. I worked for 1 month doing office work, and that was shit. I have become lost in this world, a feeling of worthlessness has hit me hard and is making me feel depressed. The current recession has taken it's toll on me and the world today. I can't find work anywhere...am I unlucky, or is my destiny playing a part in it all? Who knows...

I have made a decision on what I wanna do...I'm going to college in September 09. It is such a long time away, I don't think I can hold out any longer as stress is taking it's toll. I do apologise for sounding like a manic depressive but at the moment it's the way I feel.

The reason why I called it social decline is because nothing is going on in my life, and I feel lost. I have been playing pool with some mates but apart from that and the odd little thing here n there it's not looking good. My frustration with no jobs and worrying too much about the near future is dragging me down with the dirt and the filthwhich inhabits it. Ah well, hopefully things wont get any worse. Will it?

Changes

Well here i am again. My last post was in July! and it is now December. I have left school now and still looking for work, but in the meanwhile i've been taking life a lot more steady. I have bought a Microkorg Synthesizer and i really enjoy making my own sounds. It's not quite music yet simply because i need something like a Groovebox to get the beats going a bit more. The Jupiter 8 will have to wait until i have a secure job.

I've been playing a lot more pool now, and i'm a lot better at it but i still have a long way to go. I have won 3 minor pool tournements along with an appearance in a final. I play at players pool club loads with my friends Scott and Oliver (who are twins). I win most games thankfully :p

So whats changed? Well i'm a lot more aware of my situations and i'm better at taking control. The situation being i don't have a bloody job yet, and i've been trying so hard to find one. I've sent out 15 CVs in the last two weeks and not 1 of the job placements has got back to me! Outragous...I'm now sitting here freezing cold typing this away for something to do...

I must go now, i've posted a few pics just to update this site. Thanks.

Manchester

I went on the train to Manchester today, and it great! enjoyed exploring a diffrent town/city because i'm sick and tired of boring old Newcastle. The shops were great, but there was more for girls than for me today. Loads of disginer girly shops lol. Just loved strolling round in the boiling hot sun.

Today

Today i've just been chilling out in the scorching hot sun. I fell asleep for 2 hours, i was so relaxed. But anyway, I don't have a lot to say apart from I'm in Manchester tomorrow on my own for a relaxing day out, just looking around at diffrent shops etc. I'm sick of been down Newcastle all the time.