Changes

Well here i am again. My last post was in July! and it is now December. I have left school now and still looking for work, but in the meanwhile i've been taking life a lot more steady. I have bought a Microkorg Synthesizer and i really enjoy making my own sounds. It's not quite music yet simply because i need something like a Groovebox to get the beats going a bit more. The Jupiter 8 will have to wait until i have a secure job.

I've been playing a lot more pool now, and i'm a lot better at it but i still have a long way to go. I have won 3 minor pool tournements along with an appearance in a final. I play at players pool club loads with my friends Scott and Oliver (who are twins). I win most games thankfully :p

So whats changed? Well i'm a lot more aware of my situations and i'm better at taking control. The situation being i don't have a bloody job yet, and i've been trying so hard to find one. I've sent out 15 CVs in the last two weeks and not 1 of the job placements has got back to me! Outragous...I'm now sitting here freezing cold typing this away for something to do...

I must go now, i've posted a few pics just to update this site. Thanks.

Manchester

I went on the train to Manchester today, and it great! enjoyed exploring a diffrent town/city because i'm sick and tired of boring old Newcastle. The shops were great, but there was more for girls than for me today. Loads of disginer girly shops lol. Just loved strolling round in the boiling hot sun.

Today

Today i've just been chilling out in the scorching hot sun. I fell asleep for 2 hours, i was so relaxed. But anyway, I don't have a lot to say apart from I'm in Manchester tomorrow on my own for a relaxing day out, just looking around at diffrent shops etc. I'm sick of been down Newcastle all the time.

Fed up of this crap weather!

Just posting to have a rant at the weather. It's so depressing! Bloody 16C and rain all fackin day...typical British summer. I hope it improves soon or i'm gunna explode! I love the nice sun and warmth on my back at this time of year and outside playing football but NO!! as per usual it's crap.

End of an era 1997-2008

Last night was a true and final end of such an era of school life. Ever since being in my first year of school back in the late 90's, i never thought this day would ever come when i can finally say i have left school forever. I still have a very long life ahead of me but the last 11 years has had it's major highs and major lows. School overall has been good, i have really enjoyed being with friends, having a laugh and playing football. But the worst thing about school is the shitty work set and most of it was about assessment and not acutally fun learning. But hey, i got through the last 11 years pretty fine didn't I? I mean, i'm here now writing in my blog in one piece?

I'll just run through an auto-biography of my school life:

1996-2002

It all started at Chesterton Primary school. I can't remeber loads about this part of the school era, but i'll do my best. I was 5 or 6, i started Nursery. Good times...Just play in the sandpit all day and sing nursery rhyms. Easy life really. I rember being the only one knowing the Alphabet all the way lol!.

Reception (i don't know why they call it that?!) was getting better. By this time i remeber having very light blonde hair and having loads of friends, loads of good friends. We did very little work apart from hand-writing practise, spelling and maths.

Year 1 and 2 was very good at Chesterton. Still continuing the great friendships i had. I remeber the work getting steadily harder as maths got more advanced and english reading was getting harder - i remeber doing the "Magic Key" books! god...good old times lol. I was quite an advanced reader for my age, but my handwriting was not so good. Maths was ok, Science was good and History was intresting. Thinking back i remeber reading the teachers note assessments on us by accident, i saw that they put i'm a very bright pupil but can behave badly HAHA! I havent changed much then! I think i got level 3's in SATs which was not so good but ah well.

Year 3 and part year 4

Year 3 started off very well. It was all about getting to know new teachers and a few new pupil faces. I had my height measured in year 3 and i was 135CM! Not bad! Infact tall for my age. The work again got harder but i was handling it well. My friends went into a decline towards the end of year 3, i started to become less popular amongst the Chesterton faithful. I think it was because i started to become more confident within myself and be more outspoken and maybe even a bit gobby and annoying.
The begginning of year 4 was a turn for the worst. My parents announced that i was going to move to wolstanton and also move schools!!! to...St.Margarets. By November 2000 I moved to St.Margarets right in the middle of social decline at Chesterton.

Year 4

Started well actually, i was nervous about the whole thing and in total disagreement with my parents. People were quite friendly start off with. I remeber having loads of colds in year 4, i had a constant cold in winter which never went away. The work was much harder and i started to struggle. It was all up hill from here....

Year 5 - Decline

I was starting to get bullied loads, i don't know why and what i was doing wrong to people. It seemed the whole of year 5 and 6 was against me. The shit headteacher Mr Whittaker did fuck all to help me and was always on the bullys side....he always blamed me! I hated this school even more because it was so fucking religious...we always sang about "god" in assembly of which i think is a from of brainwashing. I got bullied by year 6's all the time and my own year a lot. I remeber bringin a BB gun into school for protection because i felt so vunerable due to no1 being by my side in this. In the morning the year 6's approached me again so i pulled out this loaded BB gun and pointed it at them...they backed off but then grassed on me 5 minutes later!!! TWATS!!! the headteacher dragged me outta lessons and had a meeting. He said we should get the police involved becaues it's an offensive weapon. I told him about being bullied by those pricks and that i feel vunerable but he still never listend. Year 5 got worse when i struggled to keep up with the work. ohh...this was one of the lowest points in my life....

Year 6 - Further Decline

Year 6 started ok...we were top dog which means the year above can't bully me...i was wrong! My year group started getting at me even more. I remeber one day when we were on the field and they chased me on the cricket pitch and beat me up very bad. One of em got me down on the floor and them 10-12 of them just started to kick me to a pulp. The headteacher once again did nothing at all and almost got the sense of letting them off. I remeber having an emergency assembly because of this...but that did fuck all. My SATs results were all level 4...not so good.

Year 7 - Uphill struggle at NCHS

At the start of year 7 i was so freakin nervous, i did not know anyone. I told myself i wont let what happend to me in primary school wont happen again...and it never did. By the middle of year 7 i started to be very well established within one of the two main friendship groups which i was happy about. I also started playing loads of football with the year 10s and 11s which was fantastic because they were all sound people. I even had year 10 girls cuddling round me all the time saying i was cute! haha! good times. Year 7 ended on a high note due to loads of friends and a massive improvement in grades.

Year 8 - Establishment and another decline

I established myself well in NCHS, i had loads of mates and work was doing well. But the upper year groups started to eye me as an easy target...But they were wrong. I was on the yard and these year 9 twats started pushing me around. But i told them firmly FUCK OFF, they continued to push a bit so a landed a punch on one of thier cheeks. It turned into 5 against 1...but i did well because i put up a good fight by shaking them off me and landing a few punches. They never bovverd again lol!. The decline started about Jan 2005 where once again my popularity dropped both with pupils and teachers. I was behaving badly in class whilst people started a dislike towards me. By the end of year 8, grades were falling again and work behind along with a dislike to the shit teachers myself.

Year 9 - Change

Started at NCHS for 2 weeks at the start of year 9...It was worse. I got egged in my face, so i turned around and twated one of them in the nose and broke it. It was gushing with blood everywhere. I wasnt in much trouble, but by my own initiative i decided to leave due to being a shit school overall.
I moved to Clayton Hall on September 19th, 2005 and i was thinking this was a wrong choice. Everyone hated me at first, they frowned at me, swore and got an overall feeling of dislike. I know this because of comments from people such as "no1 likes you nathan" and "fuck off back to yout trampy school". I felt awful and was this a bad choice? By Jan 2006 i was getting fed up to the back bones. I hated the school due to snobbish pupils and the school work was far too hard - especially french because i didn't listen much in NCHS.
I remeber breaking my wrist due to the ball being kicked and me blocking the shot on the tennis courts, and it bent my wrist right back - courtesy of Jason Whitehourst.
By March, Matt Taxi kept on jumping on my back and one day he sloshed a ice-ball in my face in the corridors so i turned around and smacked him hard in the nose. I got put in isolation for the 1st time and suspended for 1 day.
By the end of year 9 my popularity started to creep up as people started talking to me more.

Year 10 - The better days

Year 10 was very good, I increased in popularity but my work wasnt the best. It was the start of GCSEs and i was struggling with Coursework. I got talking to more people and i loved it. Also my football improved loads. I loved P.E because we play football every week...amazing. This time was also stressful with work and the odd dick head or two, but overall it was the better days of school life.

Year 11 - Peak of school life

Year 11 was stressful with tonnes of coursework to do...which i did about Jan-Feb-March. Those 3 months were very busy with work simply cause i left everything to the last minute. I matured a lot from year 10 to 11 so i guess thats the reason why i took radical action so late.
The reason why this is my peak year is because i was friends with a lot more people and football was even better! Also i was begginning to appreciate school because it was my last year and i was asking myself a lot "will i miss it or not?". Turns out atm i'm not gonna miss it that much simply because i hated the classroom learning side to it...but i'll miss the football and friends!

The one main event in year 11 was the very wrongful dissmissal of me due to my goal celebration which involved me taking my top, shorts and shoes off (still having my boxers n socks on!) and Tom Eagles filming it. So we both got expelled. But i cba go on about that...look in my previous posts for more info.

Looking forwards to the Ball

Most people call it the "prom" but i say it's the ball. Prom is so american...Anyway i'm just posting here to say i'm exited about the Ball, it's gonna be the last time i see everyone together which is special to me cause i wanna speak to everyone i like and always remeber them my whole life!
The Tux/dinner suit cost quite a bit of money, £45...but i know it will be worth it. What i'm not doing is going in a Limo because i find them tacky things and a little too costly + a bit snobbish if you don't mind me sayin - (actually i don't give a shit what goes on here, its my page! lol.)
There is a lot of people i don't like also in school going to this event, which is unfortunate but whos to say i'm popular and well liked anyway! haha! ah well, i'm not put on this earth to be loved. If people don't like me tough shit...it's not like i act i'm hard beatin up and mugging people is it? What have i gotta be ashamed of?

Anyway hopefully in my next post i'll have loads to tell about the ball and maybe even a few good pictures

My Synthesizer

My dream Synth - Jupiter 8V

Experimenting

I've been experimenting with my Synthesizer by creating new sounds and uploading more synth effects by MIDI via the internet. It's really cool! I love creating new music but unfortunatley it's a cheap synthesizer which cost less than £200.

I'm currently looking for another synth. my dream Synthesizer would be the Roland Jupiter-8 from the early 1980's, but still even today it costs around £2000! shocking...but i suppose it would be worth it considering it's regarded as the best Synthesizer of all time - and would beat the quallity of sound of modern day synths.

sorry for not posting in a while

Yeah i do apologise for not posting on here since a long time ago!!! lol. Exams are finished and i can now enjoy a stress free summer. I'm on the look out for some work, and i've been looking in job pages of newspapers and stuff like that. I'm starting to feel happier about life now, and i'd never thought i'd say this but i sorta miss school! I miss being with mates and the banter + playing football both in P.E and luch time.

I enjoyed playing against the teachers despite my personal performance wasnt at it's full potential, but i'm satisfied with the result with a 1-0 win other teachers courtesy of Lee Foyle. What spoilt the day was the announcement Teagles could'nt play which due to being expelled like me but yet i stil played on as a protest as you like against the whole thing. Never mind...

I've started playing football for an 8 a side team in Shavington which are all ages league (from 16+120!!!) I'm so happy with it, and they are a sound bunch of players too. We are currently playing warm-up matches between ourselves and other trialists in the team. I'm playing very well these last 2 weeks scoring once...but my shooting overall has been awful, and one of the players shouted to me "Alladins shoes!!!" haha!

Two great games of football in 3 days

Friday night was a great night of football which lasted almost two hours in very hot and humid conditions. I didnt score but i played well. The game finished 8-8 as both teams were very attacking. I made a couple of errors whilst under pressure which gifted the opposition 2 goals, but i still played well, i headed out well and tackled/defended brilliantly. Thats all i have to say about that game really as i'm feelin quite lazy.

The match today with the lads on the marsh was very good and finished 7-6 to us in very humid conditions. i scored 2 goals :D I'm very happy about that. Also i played well overall, good passes and a couple of runs.

Feeling great!

I havent posted for a while, but here i am again. Its been a turbulent couple of weeks because of exams which did occasionally drain all my energy, but there again i have been feeling less pressure since not being in school apart from taking my exams. I have been revising at home about 2-3 hours a day spread out so i don't get knackerd/or information wont go in. The exams have been mainly straight forwards. ICT (Higher), P.E, Science (Foundation) and some English, but i struggled on about 6 questions in Maths and partly English.
Despite all this, i got CC in l+t which i'm very pleased about. So this means i'm garunteed atleast 3 Cs :D 1 for core science.

Good game

After a few hours revising today, i went out to play 7 a side football with my mates again with the goal nets n have a game. I was carrying a slight back injury but it didnt affect my perfromance. I played well, putting a good tackle in at every oppertunity. I also played some good passes and even created 2 goals. 1 was from a clearance which Gazza latched on to and scored. The other was a long ball up to Mark where he ran past two defenders and scored. I also had a great oppertunity to score, which was from a corner where the cross was planted straight on my head so a struck the header with loads off force, but the goal never came, it rattled the crossbar very hard and came back into open play and into the hand of the keeper.
Moments later i scored a tap in from a miss kick from the defence to slot in the goal to make it 7-5. Just after this, i almost scored again hitting a shot from a pass first time but this time it was just wide of the left post.

After the match (which ended 9-7 to my team) i cycled home only to see Leeds loosing 0-1. WHAT A AWFUL GAME!! we went 0-2 down and played shite until we got a goal back in the 95th minute!!

All in all, a very good day and i'm feeling happy about the good game i played.

This week

This week has been the strangest ever. I have been expelled from school - but i don't feel as bad about it as i did in my last post. But i'm still going to fight for justice when i get the letter off the school fully stating why i got expelled. When i recieve the letter, i will either appeal or stage a massive protest - by going on the shed roof of the school and staying up there on hunger strike and bringing national press to the attention. But i don't think i'm gonna do that :p

I've been at home all this week in the garden with the warm sunshine beating down on whilst i was reading of mice and men in revision to the english exam. Its been fun, its not a bad story compares to Hound of the baskervilles and other shite stories i've read in my time.

Today, i played football with my mates who are 18-23 yrs old, and it was fun. I feel fitter and can keep up with them more in matches. The funniest thing about them is that they smoke weed in the middle of playing a huge match of about 16 people!!! My CB partner was smoking weed right next to me all afternoon, so after about 1 hour of playing a full game, i felt quite diffrent - like a little bit sick and weak lol. Pissa.

The worst day of my life - EXCLUDED!

It's official. THIS is the worst day of my life. I got permenantly excluded from school today due to "Stripping off" in P.E 9 days ago and also because i took my phone into school filming George Simons - which i apologise for to him. I got taken to the Head office and got told by both Mr Morrey and Mrs Adamson that because i stripped off i'm getting excluded - even though i didn't even put the video on Youtube myself. They phoned my Dad come in to take me outta school. ->>> Tom Eagles and Jim Baker are also in a lot of trouble because of this simply for filiming me. The MAIN reason for all this trouble is because its "spoiling the schools reputation". This is because on Youtube, the tags revolve around Clayton Halls name being on there. I sort of agree with the Head teachers about this, but the concequences are just too harsh.

Mrs Adamson said that someone found it on Youtube whilst "looking for a science lecture, and then reported it to the school". Something about this statement seems fishey and i wouldn't put it past her looking for excuses to get rid of me...because she hates me and has a personal vendetta over me. I reckon there is a mole in the camp, yet that being a Teacher or Pupil i'll never know, but someone must of grassed. But this isnt my main concern, I just thought i'd mention it. My main worry is not being at school whilst exams are coming up because i won't revise like i would properly at home cause i get too destracted.

Tom Eagles and Jim Baker (and proberbly a few others) will also get pretty harsh concequences too, and it is them i feel sorry for (as well as worrying about my own fate) because they don't deserve what ever happens to them. Tom is in loads of trouble also because of filming in Mr Paxtons lessons and putting it on Youtube. They are good people and very well behaved. BUT i still feel these consequences are so very harsh, unfair and blown out of proportion for all of us. They must be going through hell after hearing my fate already.

In Conclusion, i'm pretty fucked basically. The decided a punishment within a few minutes and i get the impression they havent really had a hard think about whats it's doing to me. YES i was MOSTLY in the wrong, but not entirely, and i certainly thing the concequences are way over the top. I feel the school has just taken this far to seriously. I removed the videos, and so did Tom (of me stripping). Now all i can do is hope, as we have a meeting with Mr Heuston to fully discuss my fate which takes place in a few days.

Also, the decisions might be that i can't do the exams at Clayton Hall, and i will have to find elsewhere to complete them.
In a very worst case senario, i might not be entered in exams at all - if this happens i will appeal to the court of Human Rights.

Thanks for reading. Love Nath to everyone. Peace out!

Bad Day

I had a bad day today simply cause of this very bad cold. I feel very bad. I got sent home today at about 12:15 PM cause i just couldn't cope. I tried battle through it, but i lost. I had this horrible cold sweat, although i felt cold. I think i caught it off Andy...what a bugger. Ah well, i will post something longer tomorrow as there is nothing more to say!

About the Semi-Final

I havent posted in a while because of the stupid blogger said it was a "spam blog". Well bollocks was it. Anyway, i wanna talk about the cup semi-final.

I turned up at Andys house with my memory card to play pro-evo 2008, and yes i got beat. Andy only had one player who could score, and that was this huge giant french donkey/Synthpop artist called...Jean Michel Jarre!! hahaha!! he scored 5 past me with his very awful stats...i don't know how he did it lol. Never mind eh, i'll live to fight another day. After a nice tea made by Andys very generous mum, we set off to Meir.

As i arrived i got charged £2!!! cheapskates! I walked with Andy in the changing rooms, and saw the whole team sitting around looking happy. Mr Morrey then announced to the team that "we only got 11 players". So everyone got changed and went on the pitch, whilst Mr Morrey pulled me up and asked me if i wanted to play for the team! I goes "i aint got me kit sir"... so he pulls out this pair of shorts, socks and shin pads. I then had this rush of confidence over me and said "I'll do it!". So i got changed and warmed the keeper Tom Amos up. I had to settle for a place on the bench...as the only sub. But for some reason i wasnt nervous at all, infact i was determind to play!

Kick off, and Clayton were pretty much on top in the first half. We defended very well, and attack ok but both teams could really produce many chances. As i was watching on the bench, i was very happy that i'm in a team playing in a schools cup semi-final.

2nd half approached, and we scored on 61 mins, Lee Foyle providing the finish from a great free kick. Keeper fucked up bad, but we scored. I ran on the pitch to celebrate with the team. That was one my the best moments of my young life.
After the goal we did ok, until Flan got injured with a strange lump on his knee. Mr Morrey replaced him with me! I was so happy! But i was play CM....and i was ok. My first touch came from a corner, where a poor ball in meant i chested it down beautifully and blasted it away, great! But after that i was shite. I felt like i was lost in space. Didnt know where i was running or nothing. Mr Morrey replaced me with Flan and i got stick off the Painsley fans, so i sarcasticly applauded them. They just laughed and started chanting "Come on you reds!!!".

They scored in the 81st minute, everyone had thier heads down but i said "HEADS UP LADS!!!" and carried on the game. I then replaced the injured Tom Eagles who had a back injury, and played the full 30 minutes extra time at RB. I was ok, i won headers and tackled well. As the light faded and extra time finished, penalties commenced. We lost 7-6 on penalties, and i was dissapointed but not criticle of Adam Burke who had the bollocks to step up and take a penalty. We went in the changing rooms and everyone was silent...but its understandable as everyone wanted to get to the Cup final.
We then got offerd chip buttys by the great catering staff at the ground, and so i grabbed one and headed off to Andys car where i enjoyed the nice ride home talking about tomorrows papers.
I rided off home from Andys and got in, had a shower and went straight to bed lol.

The next day, my name was in the paper!! i was famous at last and a very proud moment in my life. I felt great!

My next post will be more about the week from last Thursday. Thanks for reading.

Tomorrow Cup Semi Final

After feeling very tired today, i decided to only do a little work. Been quite a short day, and overall good. But this post is going to be about tomorrow.

Tomorrow is Clayton Hall's Cup semi final. I was very dissapointed some of the players saying "oh we are not going to win" bullshit. If you go into a game saying that, you are gonna loose arent you!? I hated it and I hate some of the players saying that "they are unbeaten in 4-5 years". Well now is the time to end thier unbeaten run! I want the team to go out there tomorrow confident and really up for the win...and go all the way to the final. I'm very unfortunate not to play myself...but my shit, low self confidence mixed in with hardly no match experiance means that all i can hope for is to play against the teachers, which will be my very last competitive game before i call it a day.

Even if i'm not in the team, i'm 100% behind the lads and i will give them my full support tomorrow simply cause they are a great bunch of players and also they are representing our school so there is no reason for not supporting them. Is there? I shall be attending the game regardless of the weather etc. I will be watching on the sidelines in full confidence of a win.
I really hope that the team pull together and work very hard and achieve great success which i'm confident they will despite some very undetermined comments made earlier.

So to all the players, i wish them the very best of luck!


A little bit of Amos in our lives!!
A little bit of Massey down the sides.
A little bit of Teagles what we need!
A little bit of Burke with his speed!
A little bit of Wazza in defence.
A little bit of Lowndes he's immense,
A little bit of singing from the fan's
A little bit of Smithy he's our man !!!!!!!

A good day at the office

What a day it's been. Very nice sunny and warm weather capped off by playing a nice kick about at lunch. The day started off well with having a whole lesson (p1 and p2) of catching up on coursework in the social inclusion room and therefore, in ICT i'm almost on top of all my work.

Break time was very good. Everyone was chilled out talking about football etc in the spring sunshine. We didnt have a football but i wasnt too concerned about that at all. As P3 commenced, i had a science lesson with Mr Paxton which was a doss on the computers. P4 was the relaxation technique session which helped me to chill out for the rest of the day, BUT i went into p5 (english) feeling almost stoned because i was so relaxed and a little tired lol.
Maths started at P6 and i was feeling quite tired, so i just sat and got on with the work like a normal day.

Lunch time started and i searched for a football, and thankfully i was sucessful. I took it on the top yards where we played all lunch time in the blazing sunshine. It was good and i enjoyed the good run out. I was sweating for next lesson with Mrs Truman (science). I hate it so i took my time getting my shoes back on and strolled to the last lesson (p7 & p8). To my relief we had Mr Allcock (i never thought i'd say that). I knew straight away this lesson will be a doss, which it was overall.

After the last lesson i took off home where i went sleep for an hour. Soon as i woke up i had a nice homemade curry for tea followed by 1 hour at the gym.
Overall it was a mint day but it's a shame all days can't be as good as today. I look forwards to tomorrow and getting stuck in with work and football at break and lunch time.

Tough day in P.E

A very tough day in P.E. We drew the first game 2-2, after going 0-2 down in a matter of seconds, we managed to tighten up and gel as a team...being our teacher scoring both goals.

The next game we lost 1-3 after some very stupid errors from our goalkeeper. Mr.Rhodes once again being our only goalscorer. We also missed loads of chances with our strikers...One of them missed from two yards out with no goalkeeper in the nets. It shows it wasnt to be our day.

The last game was the worst i've played in for a long time. We lost 1-7 and we got totally thrashed out of existance. They had by far the best team, with Ben Massey on the left wing he just skinned us all like we were leaves on the wind. Once again in this game, our keeper made loads of errors until we changed our keeper at 0-4. Jack Heath replacing George Simons/Greg Lake. Heath made 4 good saves but it wasnt enough to condem us to our 3 game winless streak. Mr Rhodes (our best attacker) being our only scorer skinning past the opposition defence.

Overall, i was very upset with the team i was with. I seem to always be on a very weak side, unfortunatly. But there is always next week and i'm already looking forwards to getting back to winning ways next Monday morning.